hey hey. i wanted to blog ytd but couldnt. ytd was a blur. it was the sec 4 farewell and everyone was crying and all. theres was so much emotion. i heard someone say that we were the most emotional sec 1's they've ever seen. hee. i dunno, i guess i was touched by the sec 4 speaches. then i cried because Avril and Marlene and Sukirtha were leaving. i just couldnt stop myself. i remeber telling Lorraine that it must have been do extra like to be crying when it isnt our farewell but the thought of them leaving was so sad. i know i'm not that close to them. but without them, drama club will be so different. ytd was the day that was filled with the most hugs, cries, laughter, and saying "i love you". i was mentally thinking of what to post in the afternoon ytd, saying that i hoped that drama club would be bonded as one. and not be in our 2 cliques anymore. but reaching the end, it could never happen. i cried, i just broke down. i hugged people. and i hugged them so tightly, like i never wanted to let go. i remeber saying to Aisha "you won't leave right?" and she nodded, teary eyed and said "no". i hugged Lorraine. we both cried and were going "ok, we'll stop crying now." but couldnt. and i started thinking of the irony. why did we only bond on the last session of drama? why couldnt we have figured this whole hing out earlier? its true y'know the saying. you dont know how much somethings worth till they're gone. it was really, really emotional.

yea, and after that. Lorraine and i met Serena and Syazana at the bus stop where a robbery had just taken place in bus 76. just like in those primary school compositions, hee. and they called The New Paper to report it. and then Serena took pictures of it. she pretended to be taking pictures of us but angled it to take pictures of the scene. that was kind of a relief from the exhaustion earlier. then Lorraine and i headed for Parkway to buy her Mcfly cd. then i went home bathed and changed to go to Sarahs bbq.

it was kinda wierd there i guess. around her family and her family's friends. but Sarah was relaly good. love you dear:)

on Friday, Euncie and i celebrated Sarah's birthday. it was really fun. really *** time. i created these clue card things, and made her run around the whole neighbourhood looking for them. the alst one brought her upstairs where we ate Renaldo's ecliars and strudel. then we went to Eunices room and Sarah opened the presents. hoped she liked them. then Eunice played "Go the distance" by Michael Bolton. and we lay on Eunice bed and shouted it. it was so crazy. but it was so fun. then Eunice played "Come what may" and we just stood on our chairs and sang along. like crazy people and we didnt care! we didnt care if the neighbours complained or that we were making too much noise. we jut sang our hearts out. then the thought of next year just dawned upon us. evrything would change next year. and i started having a memory flashback. and i thought, our lives were like a tv show. our friendship was like those plots in stories. through our fights and all those times we got in trouble. our adventures and mishaps. our playgrounds, our dear Renaldo's. and then suddenly the movie. where ***** leaves for *****. and how we get through it. *** and *** will always love *****. and ***** will always love *** and ***. she'd better:) *does eyebrow thing* ok?

today i went to church. i didnt join the youth again. i dont know why. i wanted to but i was glued to my seat. so i didnt go. avter that Dad, Ken and i wento eat some Japanese food at the Esplanade. its really good. and quite affordable. then we came back. and here i am typing out all these to you. i havent done any of my homework yet. except English. k i still have a maths paper, a science paper and geography more to do. rightyoh better get started.

to us! cheers!

Michelle went "Hey macadamia" :)

hello hello. hmm. for some strange reason i feel like talking about adolescence today. dont i always:) ha. but i dont know why. maybe it hit me today when i walked back. now that mums in Ipoh i have to walk back. but its good. can stock up my 30 minutes of walking. but what i thought about wasnt really the size of my thighs but about posing. yes, posing. i sound so serious dont i? but i have no idea. i'm just thinking about posing. i mean i reflected on myself today. i think ever since i came to secondary school i've been so scared that people won't like me or will get angry with me and started caring so much, way to much infact. like i tell Clare, i'm just a spineless coward. no not cow Clare, coward. but its quite funny isnt it. spineless cow. hmm. ok, got distracted. k. kohkoh's music is playing on the other com.

"no i dont think time is gonna heal is gonna heal this broken heart
no i dont see how it can when its broken all apart..."

ok back to the subject. i cant stand that about myself. its like slap yourself michelle. *slap* i think about the way i
am. when i'm around other people mostly. but with the gang its ok. i think im not afraid to show thm my freaky side. do you know how wierd i am? i ranked 8 over a 10 scale when julie ranked me. ofcourse not saying its a bad thing. i mean to me being wierd is cool (does 2 thumbs up thing) hee, yep. thats why when i talked to Eunice that day. i said i was so glad to be hanging out with her again. because we can be as strange and wierd as we want and we wont have to care. i guess i'm just afraid. i'm afraid if people know me. they wont want to know me, or even talk to me. i dont want everybody to know me, ofcourse i dont want that. thats why i blend. i like to blend. blending is good. i've been told so many times. just dont care. but i still do. i just wont learn. stupid girl (pushes head). so thats why i think i'm a poser. isnt it strange? why is this girl saying shes a poser. actually i think everyones a poser one way or another. its like, how can i say this, er, everyones other side. i dont know why i alwasy use this example. doctor jekyll and mister hyde. its like a present. you dont know whats inside. but its just wrapped in sparkly paper. and even though you rip of the paper, there underneath it, is a box. so you open the box, and you see stuffing. so you pull out the stuffing. and you see the present. ah, its a beautiful doll-lets say. and so you go what a nice doll. so you play with it. and then after a week you're bored with it. so you put it on your cupboard. but then you have to clean it up so you put it inside a box. then its someones birthday. so you wrap it again, and give it to the person. thats how life is- if you caught any of that. i mean i'm not saying that everyones a poser, i dont want to point fingers or anthing. i'm just saying in everyone of us there is some part you want to let go. but there will always be good friends who hold you together.

thats why on top it all, theres a bow around the wrapping paper. the ribbon of friendship and trust. someone who understands you, your soulmates. heh. i sound like a hallmark greeting card. but its true. thats why i'm so glad that i have the best friends in the world. because it is only when i'm with you guys, i'm in my best shape. you know i'm feeling better. *cracks neck* i felt like i got a load of my chest. wow, i can write those mushy scripts next time. hee:) i decided to call this theory (yep, mc's theory) the box theory. i was thinking present theory and wrapping paper theory but i deciede to go with box theory. ah yep. ok beter go.

amazing race last ep tonight.
go brandon and nicole!

Michelle went "Hey macadamia" :)

hello hello. guess what i did ytd? i made this lip balm thing using petroleum jelly and jello powder. ah, so cool. got the idea from ym.com. today i tried making a 2 minute apple cobbler thing but i couldnt cause i didnt have apples so i made it using pears instead. it tasted ok. the oatmeal part was nice:)

i watched Tuck everlasting today on disney. nice show. i like these type of olden shows. but it was very nice. Alexis Bedel(sp?) was acting in it.

"we don't have to live forever
we just have to live."

oh yea! its gilmore girls now. and you probably have no idea what i'm talking about again but the laksa aunty came back. dad and i have been eating her laksa for the past few years and suddenly this year she closed her stall cause the rent was too high. but now shes back. having it for dinner tonight. yum.

hello,it works it works it works. yep. i'm using the old com now. k, i kinda forgot about everything already but today we had IAP rehersal. the things tmr. was pretty fun. it was a full dress thing so we dressed up in the clothes. i didnt have a skirt to wear so i had to wear the st hildas one. i had another skirt but my thighs are fat so they dont look er, "retro-ey" enough. yep. so i lent it to Clare. strut your stuff Clare!

it was raining today. ah, cold. ohyea, there was supposed to be a chinese exam today but it was postponed. so i crammed like mad ytd. haha. oh yea(whats with me and "oh yea's"? no idea), watched Amazing Race ytd! ahh... i got pretty high. it was the yeilding issue. Chip and Kim yielded Colin and Christie who were the most agressive and fastest team. they arrived last but turns out it was a non elimination round so it was whew for them. and er, on tuesday the new season of the bachelorette. yay Meridith. on monday, Extreme makeover is over and America's Next Top Model is coming back. and ah on thursday there is Average Joe: Adam's return and The Apprentice. i prefer Larissa's one tho. but Adams a great guy. hope he makes a good choice. on Friday oh yea!!(there i go again) there's Survivor Vanuatu(sp?) but hey its survivor. the exams are coming up, have to cram.

and, Sarahs Birthday is coming up! yep! i'm going to buy you presents dear. i dont know if you'll like it, but tell me honestly if you like it or not ok? and i'll get you something else. i missed your bdae pressie last year so i'm not going to miss it again. and wait, p5 too right? wow. right. so just wait. imagine you'll be 13 soon. yep. you're gonna be old like me. you funky lil preteen:) lets try to hang out more, maybe after the exams? Eunice too. ahh, love you Sa:) (hugs)love you Eunice! love you Gladys! love you Dyane! love you Cheryl! love you Jomel! love you Shayus! love you Charmaine L! love you Charmaine C! love you Zi ling! love you Shi min! love you Marianne! love you CF! love you Sy jia! i'm back in the missing primary school mode again. not that i ever stopped missing it, just that i got that sudden thing again. teachers day didnt really work out i think. but it was fun all the same.

" I want to marry you."
" but i'm your cousin,"
" I don't care, i just want to be with you forever."

that was a line from The secret garden. nice show. prefered this to black beauty, but black beauty was good too. k, i'd better get off now. i have no idea why i'm saying this but dont go to Giant supermart at Parkway. i went there today. not a good experience. this person was trying to get me to change my internet service from cable to singtel. k, better go.

crosses fingers for IAP tmr.
we can do this!:)

Michelle went "Hey macadamia" :)

hello hello. ah, went to TM today with Julie and Elc. we watched 13 going on 30. its so cool. i love it. thats why i promised Julie that i would post about it. so here i am, posting about it. shoud i spill the whole story or let you go watch it for yourself. you go watch it for yourself:) it was really nice and really sweet. there was one part where Jennifer Garner, she played the lead character-Jenna, told her best friend back when she was 13, that she liked him type of thing and he was getting married. and it actually started with this dream house he built for her. and he sprinkled on some wishing dust which was why she turned 30. it was a hilarious show. i was so in the 13 going on 30 mode i kept laughing for no reason. but i'm like that right? i'm wierd.

we took so many neoprints its crazy. we took 3 in total, i mean from 3 machines. each one had about 8 picutres, but we took 4 and it was multiplied twice. i looked horrible. i am not a photogenic person. Elc took them to scan in. thanks Elc.

on Monday we had to go back to school for an IAP rehersal. after that Lynette, Lorraine and i went to TM. i keep going to TM even tho now i'm in katong. but anyway we went there and it was fun. it had been such a long time since the 3 of us went out together. fun (2 thumbs up). and er, we took neoprints again. yea, we had a great time.

y'know i posted before about finding out about my family tree right? well i asked Sit, cause she talked to my grandma alot. and she said that we are probably all chinese so i can rule out the non-chinese relative possibility. then my bro said we were manchurian. which i am not sure whether or not to believe. he once told me that this rock from the great wall of china was magic and had me hold it in my hand for 15 minutes. i had no idea, i was about... p2 i think. but its kinda funny thinking back on it now. all the things he made me do. he dared me to dye my hair pink once and he used to push me around the airport on the trolleys last time. ahh, whats wrong with me. i'm starting to not mind my brother now. nope its not starting to like him, just starting not to mind him. i guess as we grow older we get wiser, and lazier. so we dont really bother to irritate each other now. yep, hmm, ok i think i'd better wrap up, have to go eat.

13 going on 30 rocks! if only i were 30. as Jenna said,
" 30, flirty and thriving" (thankyou Julie)
enjoy the rest of the holidays:)

Michelle went "Hey macadamia" :)

ah, there you go. hello. i havent been updating cause there was something wron gwith the typing box on my com but now its fixed. dad came back today. i'm eating the aussie flown in steak with honey mustard. i know i know, wierd combination but its good. Dad also bought a Rip Curl shirt, Brother Neilson sweater and a Rip Curl wallet for me. yay. thanks dad:)

it was more or less teachers day week. went back to pirmary school for about a few minutes before heading off. school ende at 12 and we had to rush there from katong. hmm, shps, our alma mater.

went to watch Cinderella Story today with Lorraine. i thought it was great. so i dont see why people rated the show 2 stars. okok, so maybe it was Hilary Duff, but i still liked it all the same, even if she didnt act in it. well, i guess i wont like it as much but i'm a Hilary fan! and i think she rocks! we took neoprints after that. so fun and so broke.

had drama today. we were disscussing for the farewell. for the first part at least. then the sec 1's stayed at that study corner after our break until we saw Mrs Lopez at the staff room and rushed back to the ML room.

ah, ok. cant talk more. dad rushing me to eat. oh yea oh yea. its the starting of the september hols. whoo. and when thats over its the december hols to look forward too. ah, ok ok really have to go. happy holidays!

Michelle went "Hey macadamia" :)

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