heyhey. k today Lorraine, Elc, Kimmie, Evonne and Fiona went to Julie's church to help out. didn't really do much but we had fun with the cutter. we were suppsoed to cut bookmarks and this cutting machine, don't really know how to explain, made very nice oh wow, what can we call that huh? er. it was kind of like paper strips that were curled. you know those things? just that they were very thin. and then Evonne and i made some stars to go with it. it was fun!

oh yeah! today was the last day of school! can you believe it? our sec 1 lives are officially over. amazing right? the year passed so fast. i think maybe its because we were faced with so many new things every day that it just doesnt seem boring. but i mean its the last day of school! no more waking up at 6 in the morning, at least for the year, and worrying about homework and teachers or forgetting to bring your ODT. haha, okok. i won't go on with that. i love all the friends i made this year. you guys are the best! ahh its like a chapter of our lives has just ended.

so now all we have to do is wait for another one to begin:)

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hey my com can work with blogger now! great. ok so i just updated my archives, never realised i had so much to blog about:) and btw, thanks to everyone who cheered me up! k besides that, this is waht i was really thinking about today.

"to be or not to be, that is the question."

how many times have you heard that already right? i know i know. ok, its not really a question of being or not its whether i want to or not. i'm at the cross roads. i want to try out again. i mean at least i think i do. but am i willing to go through everything again just to y'know... wear that skirt and black shoes? i have no idea. some people ask me to try out again, some people say i shouldn't. its not only doing the duty. but having to go through all those bonding camps and everything and i'm starting to wonder if its really worth it? do i want to be a prefect so much that i'm willing to give up my life for it? actually its strange. when i first passed the interview to become a pop, i was excited-yes, but i dunno i just didnt want to be a prefect that much. i was quite a bad pop really. yes its my fault! and i only got what i deserved. and after 8 months its just sad. because with my mum and people saying i shouldnt be a prefect, i was at the same point i am now. at the crossroads. i was thinking, if i do become a prefect, will i say yes or no. is it better if i say no? or should i say yes? and it was only on Monday did i say "y'know what? i do want to be a prefect. i do want to take up the responsibility." but it was too late. why'd i figure that out so late in the game. and the next day when i found out i failed, it just happened.

ytd a really weird thing happened. i came home and was flipping through the channels and came to Playhouse Disney (i know i know, ok just listen). and they were showing P B and J Otter so i was like " ok i'll watch this." there was nothing else on and besides i was always a fan of them. yep yep. its true. ok sorry for drifting away. so iw as watching and i was thinking. should i ask them to give me another chance? and then there was the scene like this.

imagine Peanut, Butter and Jelly holding spades and building sandcastles. their friend, the duck can't build sand castles. and using usaul noodle style thinking, they sing a song. and guess what song they sing? "try try again. if at first you dont succeed, try try again..." and i was thinking that this was some strange coincidence. i mean no that it was actually a sign, but i guess it kind of helped.

up till now i have no idea. i mean i may be wanting so much to be a prefect but if i do try out, will i regret it? i know of some people who hate being prefects and i'm thinking "what happens if i do try out and i put in effort and i do make it but then i turn out to hate it?" so yep, delima. i'm just so confused. i don't even know if i can make it if i do try again. i sound so desperate right? try to deal with me for a while:).

wait. you know what? i think i got it. i think i've really figured it out. i just read through my post and i'm thinking "i know what to do now!" and its kind of stupid but i think it can work. you know what? (i'm getting a little jumpy) i think it will. it will completely rule out everything i was thinking about. well not all but hey, i think it can:). ok.

i know what to do now.

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hello hello. ah ok today. well today was a kind of sad day, but it was also a good day. i learnt a lot today. learnt about rejection. well it was the biggest rejection i ever got. failure. what can i say about failure. hold on..

Failure: noun lack of success.

hmm. i guess its a part of life. a ritual. something everyone must go through to get tougher and learn more. i mean yep it was kinda sad but i think i'm ok. you know, i learned from my mistakes. nono don't worry. i'm not going to say Failure is the key to success or what not. its just er, failure is a transition. so theres no use beating yourself up about it right? if its not meant to be its not meant to be. maybe theres something else better that you're supposed to do. and losing this battle just made your job easier. so yep. i can take it. i will excell! i will try my best! i will do whatever i can! ..and i will have to face people and tell them the news. but you know what? even though i'm kinda sad that i didnt make it, i should tell them in confidence. i know its not something to be proud of. but its better this way. its better.

so you know what? i'm ok about it. i'm feeling empowered and energized. i feel like i don't have to worry about what i'm going to do or whether i will grow to hate it or not. so i'm relieved. i have another 3 years to figure out whether i really want it or not. and so 3 years i'll wait!

byebye skirt! i think you're better off without me.

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hey! i'm blogging. finally right? ok! its the 6 day "holiday now" i love school for being like this. just had the end years last week and this monday and tues. not very confident about it but pray it come out well. the internets down on the other com. ok i'm so sorry i know this is really short but i'll blog again another time. enjoy the break!

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hellohello. i'm in school now. only place i can blog. its com studies now and mr Lim is no where to be seen. yay. k on friday we just had our English EOY (as Sa says) and well, its not looking good. for some wierd reason *waves hands abt in slow-mo* i put "the next week". yepp. how could i have been so stupid? "the next week." in compo we're not supposed to put next week or even a day later. so yep. good going michelle.

ytd, thanks to a tip off by Sarah, found out there was a B.U.M sale going on at Tm. bought a few things for Sit and myself. was fun.

watched One Tree Hill on sat! great show. i watched it about 3 or 4 times before. i'm hooked on it. as i am with other television shows. and oh yea! on thursday no more Adams Return. its For Love or Money 3. yes you heard right! For Love or Money 3! but now its a little different. because the girls and the guy all watched the show, there was a little twist. they all had "blank" cheques which they had to choose from. they were actually written so that it could only be seen in UV light. so in normal light it was "blank". if you get what i mean. and so the second part of the twist was that the price ranged! there was the 1 million dollar cheque, and then there was 500 thousand dollars, 100 thousand, 50 thousand, i think there was a 250 thousand, and then there was a 1 dollar one. so it was jumbled up, and the girls had to select which one they wanted. it was like a lucky draw. so the main thing was that the girls had no idea how much they were playing for. and at the end, they would have to choose, love, or money. and who knows, the winner might end up having only $1. yepp, great show:)

and now Survivor: Vanuatu! oh gosh i love that. okok i love All Stars more but this is getting pretty exciting. which reminds me of my English compo. wrote about Survivor. and then i put "the next week"... alrighty will stop harping on that.

its Monday now, in 2 days it'll be Chinese compo then Lit, then Maths, next monday will be Science and the Chinese paper 2. after that will be a holiday:) we don't have to come to school for MEP exam, and the rest are marking days so we have a 6 day holiday. ah, isnt that nice.

i have a dentist appointment today. havent talked about that in a while right? ok i dont know what we're goingto do today. hopefully something not painful. i think i'm adjusting quite well to braces. except the food part. that part's still bad.

oh hey! watched Bicentenial(sp?) Man ytd. a very touching show. it was about this Robot who wanted so much to be a man. and he liked his little miss, who was his bosses youngest daughter. and the story lasted for many years. Andrew, played by Robin Williams, was in search for robots hjust like him. he was very different because his personality wasnt built in him, it was more, er, like cultivated. and then he came back, and his little miss had passed away. but she had a grand daughter who looked exactly like her. and he fell in love with her. they wanted to get married but couldnt because he was a Robot. so he appealed to becom a human. and when he finally was declared one, he had passed away. i know my discription is kinda vague but yeah thats basically it.

and as Andrew Martin used to say;
" It was a pleasure to be of service."

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