Hey hey! ok its a Sunday. which means i have to go back to school tmr. wake up at 6 in the morning, wash up, forget to put the rubber bands in my teeth, go down, have a gulp of milk, eat my jam and cheese sandwhich (trust me its the best!) and then realise "oh! i havent put my rubber bands yet!" and rush upstairs to put in on and then rush back down again to do last minute packing and everything else. really! thats what i do every time. i have no idea why. gosh, i'm so predictable arent i?

lol ok anyway, has anyone ever heard of our local artist Corrine May? shes awesome! well i'm not that a BIG music person, so i rarely frequent cd shops. but ytd i was hanging out with my friend who was into music so i suggested we check this used cd shop out. i went in and heard this really beautiful song playing. and then i heard something about Singapore, and i smiled in shock. okok, i dont know how you do that but i did. i asked the sales lady who's cd it was. and she replied, "Corrine May, our local artist.". i nodded and continued listening, then i asked, "how much is it?", "16.90" she replied. then there was a pause, before i said "can i buy it please?". haha, ok i dont know why i typed that all out but yes. what i'm trying to say is that Corrine May is excellent and i've been listening to her nonstop since i bought her cd. even in my sleep! its just playing and playing. ok, so she may not have a very strong voice compared to other foreign artists, but her songs are.. er, i think the words sentimental. yeah, anyway you should really check it out, if not i'd gladly lend you the CD :) (yes yes you can tell i'm trying to spread the Corrine May fever), haha. ok!

so well ytd, i went to Marina Square to show my friend from NY around. and guess what? we played bowling! i cant believe it. and surprisingly i didnt do half bad. i actually wonXD. but still its good that i could actually hit any pins down considering the fact that i get straight zeros all the time (its a curse i'm sure). and ok, i have to admit though, i am pretty superstitious when it comes to bowling. i make sure i use the same ball everytime, i make sure i pick it up the same way, if i take a sip before getting a strike for example, i'll take a sip before every turn. so really is like deja vu all over again. except that you know, i dont always score strikes. ok, make that never score strikes. yes, that makes more sense, lol.

anyway, i'm avatar hunting now! i've found some, so update time:









there you go! and its dinner time. ahh, laksa, my old friend. i havent seen you in ages. how are you? still hot? haha (laughs at own joke). well i've missed you. its been too too long. although ok, my dad wouldnt have bought you if mixed rice was there but that doesn mean i dont love you! it only means i love you mroe. how does that logic work? er, you see i didnt want to finish you. yes, i wanted to spread the laksa joy to everyone, i wanted you to survive! so thats why i chose mixed rice to eat in the first place. i know i'm talking to my food, but really one of the components to have a good relaionship. this er, Michelle-Laksa relationship. yes.

how is it that i find myself freaking people out every other second of my life!? well i guess by being like this. but really, have you tried talking to your food before? exactly. you get to know your food better, understand it. just the same way a tailor is with his cloth. he has to listen to the cloth, to understand the cloth, and what it is best to be made into. oh my! cloth! this reminds me. i lost my cloth for home ec. i have to do an entire new one. and the sewing machine hates me. thus the home ec blues song. never heard of it? haha, haha, hahaha (does evil laughter) you will.

and ok, the CD has been playing 4 times over. you see, thats how long i take to blog. gosh Michelle. ok, so apart from posting the avatars, this was a pointless post, like most of my other posts. why do i do that so much? but ok, i've learnt to live with it.

and you should too :). its a happy day everyone! so smile like you own it!

i have no idea where that came from but you know what? i'm going to listen to it XD

Michelle went "Hey macadamia " :)

hello! well so far its been a really busy week. i'd love to post about it but i cant. i dont know, well i just heard that someones mother passed away. please dont ask me who, i'm not supposed to tell and really i dont know them. so i'm feeling horrible, and well yeah i dont know them at all. heh its ok if you dont understand. but i dont know, i just feel terrible. this shouldnt happen. no one should lose their mum at 14. no one should lose their mum at any age. and now i just- ah. i feel so bad, i feel my heart just tightening and tightening until its about to snap. and really its none of business. and so just now i visited Rachel's blog and saw this:

For Mom:
When you were 1, she fed you and bathed you. You thanked her by crying all night long.
When you were 2, she taught you to walk. You thanked her by running away when she called.
When you were 3 , she made all your meals with love. You thanked her by tossing your plate on the floor.
When you were 4, she gave you some crayons. You thanked her by coloring the dining room table.
When you were 5 , she dressed you for the holidays. You thanked her by plopping into the nearest pile of mud.
When you were 6, she walked you to school. You thanked her by screaming, "I'M NOT GOING!"
When you were 7, she bought you a baseball. You thanked her by throwing it through the next-door-neighbor's window.
When you were 8, she handed you an ice cream. You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.
When you were 9, she paid for piano lessons. You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.
When you were 10, she drove you all day, from soccer to gymnastic to one birthday party after another. You thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.
When you were 11, she took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.
When you were 12, she warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.
When you were 13, she suggested a haircut that was becoming. You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.
When you were 14, she paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.
When you were 15, she came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.
When you were 16, she taught you how to drive her car. You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.
When you were 17, she was expecting an important call. You thanked her by being on the phone all night.
When you were 18, she cried at your high school graduation. You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.
When you were 19, she paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.
When you were 20, she asked whether you were seeing anyone. You thanked her by saying, "It's none of your business."
When you were 21, she suggested certain careers for your future. You thanked her by saying, "I don't want to be like you."
When you were 22, she hugged you at your college graduation. You thanked her by asking whether she could pay for a trip to Europe.
When you were 23, she gave you furniture for your first apartment. You thanked her by telling your friendsit was ugly.
When you were 24, she met your fiance and asked about your plans for the future. You thanked her by glaring and growling, "Muuhh-ther, please!"
When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you. You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.
When you were 30, she called with some advice on the baby. You thanked her by telling her, "Things are different now."
When you were 40, she called to remind you of a relative's birthday. You thanked her by saying you were "really busy right now."
When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her. You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.
And then, one day, she quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART.

i read it and cried. this is all the way till 50 years old. and now that someones 14. 14! it just cant happen. i dont know. sometimes i wonder how i can so emotional about things. but that isnt the matter. what matters is your mum. all the times you wished you didnt have one, all the times you talked back at her, all the times you took her for granted. i mean like, shes supposed to be my mum, she cant go! she cant just leave like that. this isnt supposed to happen. i asked myself before in a post before, how would i feel if one of the people in my family passed away. i thought i knew answer. i mean like, i thought i knew how i felt, or should be feeling. but i dont, i realised i dont know anything at all. i wont be feeling the way you do in a movie, even though i know its really similar. but thats not how i should be feeling. its not, it just isnt. life isnt a TV show Michelle, why do keep believing like it is? not everything that happens has to be dramatic, not everything has to turn out perfect, not everything is exagerrated, not everything is the way it is, or supposed to be. and now i'm caught up in all these emotions when it doesnt concern me at all.

you know Michelle if you werent such a busybody this wouldnt happen.

but okok, this is not about me, so shush Michelle. this is about losing your mum, and loving your mum. this about having a mum. about knowing your mum. this is about just, mums. sarah said to me "i wonder how that someones going to cope". i dont know. i dont even want to think about it.

and even if i wanted to, i just cant. i dont even know what to say.

oh my you know what? i think i need my mummy. i love her so much.

today i thank God that we are blessed with mothers, to guide us, to scold us, to love us.

today i thank God that i am thankful for having a mum :).

Michelle went "Hey macadamia" :)

hello, well ok. do you know whats stuck in my head right now? tomorrow. everythings going to happen tomorrow. well not everything but almost everything. my whole life will either come to a screeching halt (and i die in the process) or i continue on, the engine popping a little bit. but dont get me wrong! i'm excited :). i'm really excited. excited as Michelle could ever be (if you've seen how excited i can get). but at the same time i'm afraid. i have no idea how i did. i have never seen it before. a part of me doesnt want to see it, a part of me does. i'm not 100% confident of what i did, but i still hope i did well. i dont completely think its horrendous (even though it probably is), and still i think that i made such a major fool of myself. although i think i didnt do too badly, so i still want to see how i did. but then now that i think about it, Michelle, you're talking about yourself here, something must have gone wrong! so now i dont want to see it. but suddenly so many people know because you know, people spread it around. so they're all going to see me being horrible. and i guess i'm scared of that. but at the same time i'm still happy that i'm actually there. *points* do you know what i mean? its like-

ok stop it Michelle we get the point.

so yeah. thats how i feel right now. a blended mixture of happiness, excitement, insecurity, and possibly every other emotion that anyone can feel in a moment. well you know, for now, all we can do is cross our fingers and wish for good luck. i hope you guys dont fall off your seats. i hope i dont fall off my seat. i hope no one falls of their seats. but you know if you're sitting on the floor thats a completely different story.

so yeah. tomorrow will make or break you Michelle. i'm hoping it will make me. unless it makes me a broken person XD. (laughs at own joke). haha right ok. the joke didnt have much punch. haha! thats because dont have hands! so they cant punch! haha, get it? or they dont have juice, so they're not punch! so they cant have much punch!

alright Michelle that was just pathetic. but at least i'm trying. and no matter what happens tomorrow, happy or sad, laughter or tears, i just have to know that i'll keep on trying.

*crosses fingers* heres to tomorrow XD

the hopefully best day of my life.

Michelle went "Hey macadamia" :)

Edit: Tuesday, 26 July,

hey! ok my blog can only hold 7 posts at once. so i'm posting here for today. update on avatars! and i cant believe what i saw just now. its just, i dont know how to put it! lol. its definitely strange seeing yourself there *points*. not a very pretty picture. but okok, here are the avatars:










lol ok! there you go. well i've been staying back this entire week because i'm lucky enough to get to audition p6 girls who want to come into TK through drama. and also, theres drama farewell tmr! thats going to be so good, but after that, theres the sec 2 combi talk. nice isnt it? haha. and you know what? now that i think about it, i dont get why i didnt just create a new post for this! XD!

maybe because i'm still stuck in yesterday :)

Michelle went "Hey macadamia" :)

hello, well ok i found some new ones! and all of a sudden, i'm really into my barbie dolls again. dont say i'm childish or anything lol. i dont know, i just took them out and changed their clothes and everything. i think it has something to do with that Tyra Banks movie i saw last night. lol, anyway:


















hope you like them! if anyone actually steals them lol. i'll update again.

Michelle went "Hey macadamia" :)

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